Spending time with my SIL (my BIL's wife) always causes great anxiety. Now that we live near them it makes it harder to avoid them. We live less than a mile away.
This weekend my husbands sister and her family will be traveling here from another state.
I'm not able to 'opt out' of the gathering tmw. It is for a good friend of mine's sons bd party. Not going isn't really an option. Unless, I'm dying. I would rather be dying than spend time w/my SIL.
Next Friday night my husband got 10 free tickets to a local comedy club. He invited my BIL/SIL to come. He told me today "I would rather *brother* not come if it means *sil* won't come. It is your birthday and the last thing you should have to do is put up w/her dumb ass. *WHOA..my dh swore. Mark it on the calendar.*
All this to say.....my anxiety level has already been on high alert. I've already been struggling w/keeping myself in a safe space. And the added stress has me in a whirlwind of panic.
Thus...why I'm composing...again...a blog post at 2am. I can't sleep. One of these days I will stop being the better person and tell *SIL* where to stick her stupid self.