I'm emotionally and physically exhausted.
Again tonight ...I had an extremely bad bought with pain.
Again tonight...I freeked the hell out.
Full force panic attack. There is no rationale. There is no nothing. Helpless in many aspects of life right now...and...helpless to control the pain.
I'm left trying to pick up the pieces. A husband, who obviously is at his max. Children, who are freeked by what is going on with their mom. And I can't explain it to myself ....let alone my kids.
I'm at a loss as what I should do. Each night this happens I feel less and less in contol.