Most people don't have to think about how they deal with life. Suicide thinkers do. Other people know how it feels good to run a mile, look at their stamp collection, meditate e build a bird house, garden, do a crossword puzzle. They do these things instinctively. Their thought process is not : "I feel like shit. I'd better find some way to divert my attention and improve my mood before I fall deeper into despair. " Their brain style allows them to cope with stress and pain, like a car engine having enough gas and oil to keep it running smoothly. My brain was (is) short on gas and oil.
Exerpt from "How I Stayed Alive When My Brain was Trying to Kill Me " by : Susan Rose Blauner
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Holy shit does that paragraph resonate DEEPLY with me today. As in deep. Depression and the bs surrounding it has taken up residence in my brain today. And when I say deep I mean.....deep! I'm out of gas. Running on empty far to long.
1 comment:
I'm so sorry for your struggles. ((hugs)) as I think you already know, my grandfather and uncle committed suicide. I have a neice that struggles with it as well. I do hope you can find what you need. I'm sorry - I just feel at a loss for words. : -/
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