Tuesday, December 6, 2011


I'm doubting every single thing.

My marriage.  Is my husband being honest with me?  What abt xyz?  I'm certain that he's not being truthful.

My ability to parent.   My son screams hysterically tonight bc his dad was not here to tuck him in.  My daughter...I don't even know her anymore.  I tell her goodnight and I love her.  She responds with nothing.   That hurts.  My kids prefer their dad over me.  That hurts.  Deep.

My desire to he aroind other people is nothing! 
I have no desire to look up airfares for my trip to Orlando on March.  I don't even know that I want to go.  I can't stand to be around me.  Why would I expect anyone else to?

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