Tuesday, February 7, 2012

You Are Not Alone

This is a common theme amongst many in the adoption, disruption, mental health, medical world.  There is always someone somewhere that can relate to whatever it is you might be dealing with.

It was the theme in Orlando 2011 for the trauma mommas.  

Yet, regardless of knowing these things it can often feel as if you add truly alone.

I know I am not alone in this plight...yet day to day..ones such  as today...I AM Alone!

My husband, friends, close family who do know...are just as weary of this as I am.

There is nothing I want more than to be rid of the constant battle and whirlwind.

I wish it was as easy as my husband believes it should be.  Dear Lord, do I ever.  I would havd a fon of sick days built uo and have no need to 'use' my vacation as sick leave.  If it was as he often believes damn I wouldnt be missing work unpaid.

I wish if was as easy as my therapist makes it sound.

And today...no matter what anyone tells me....I am alone.


GB's Mom said...

Today you feel alone. But, truly, you are well loved. I am sorry you feel alone today. The love is still there even if today you don't feel it. I hope tomorrow is better.

Sheri said...

I know that feeling, but I love you and I hope you feel that too!