The world is hidden behind the face you see. There is a world that has been hidden for such a long time that no one knew it was there, not even the person herself. She had no clue all that was hidden inside. She waited until she thought she was emotionally, physically, and mentally stable to allow the door to be opened. She was not sure she wanted to konw or to open the door.
Fear took over and she didn't believe that everything inside would ever be contained again once the door was opened. Feared she would be left broken, useless, and fear driven more than she already was. As long as that door stayed shut she could cope...or...at the very least attempt. Behind that door if it stayed shut...she could continue to not feel. Keeping those feelings locked behind that big door...leaving the spectrum of anthing that was possible for a person to feel...she was afraid.
Would the door ever shut again if it was broke up or even cracked open a little bit? Would she be able to cope with what was inside? Did she even realize how much pain was really behind that door. The door is heavy. She knows how incredible unsafe a heavy door can be. It is all unknown.