Monday, September 5, 2011
Thankfulness Project Monday
My heart is so full this evening as I think about what a wonderful weekend my children and I had. And I'm truly blessed for a wonderful frienship that has blossomed over the last few months. Having someone that truly knows what it is like to fight daily, weekly, monthly w/the demons of suicidal ideation, depression, anxiety, ect ect...is a truly blessing in disguise. Truly...a blessing in disguise.
My children are rockstars! They are the reason why I get up every day. They are the reason why I not only get up but go to work (almost everday)! I am so proud of the beautiful people that they are becoming.
Job:I often complain about my job. I often am triggered by my job. Actually, every single day I am triggered by my job. Regardless, I am so thankful that I have this position. I'm thankful that I've been able to keep and maintain fulltime employment for 2 full years and 1 yr part time before being promoted to full time. I often think back to not very long ago when my psychiatrist encouraged me to apply for SSDI. I flat out refused. I knew that I could work and be productive. I also knew that working was healthy for me. Most of the time. There have been many times over the last several years where I have thought about giving up, applying for SSDI and accepting that as my fate. Right now that will not be my fate. There are so many people who want to work and are not able to do so. I may need a reminder about this in a few hours when I'm working a 12 hour day w/o a break. When my body is sore from the physical nature of my job. When my anxiety is in full blown "I can not do this anymore" and am ready to give up.
This post is a offspring of Thankfulness Project Monday. I'm thankful I found her blog and for the sweet and tender advice that I've picked up from her posts.