Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Rough Night

No much to say other than the struggle to stay afloat is real.

Stuck I'm whirlwind of pain, trauma, and something else that works hard at bringing me down.

R* died and a ton of shit surfaced.  And 3 weeks later I had surgery. Which put much of tht "stuff" to the wayside.  Now as I taper off meds, pain contiues to be loud and clear...that shit..it all surfaces again. And with it comes other things.  That I am unable to stuff back down.  I eluded to some of it in my last post. 

Can't go there this morning.  I'm already in a hopeless,..you will amount to nothing attitude.   Describing where "this" piece comes from is to much.

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