Finding Joy

~~~in the little things.

Such as this picture that I took yesterday at a birthday party for my cousins who turned 2 and 4 yrs old. 

State Fair Award Winning Rose Bush

My Aunt and her darling family (4 children ages: 2, 4, 7, & 7) recently bought a new home.  It was very hard for her to leave her last house.  There are many things coming to bloom in her home and she is loving every ounce of it. 

Finding joy in the little things.  The beauty that our beautiful earth provides.  Spending time w/my Aunt and her children. Old fashion water spickets such as this one.  Found in the entry to my Aunt's home.

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All in all I was able to find some sort of peace and comfort in my day yesterday.  I tried like hell to make it be a good day.  And when I came home and lost my sh*t for personal reasons w/my daughter.  I managed to find some peace and comfort. 

Today has been about the same day.  I had a rather interesting private conversation with my Bishop at church.  As we discussed some issues w/our adopted sons bio family that is currently somewhat of an issue and causing some grumbling between them, their ward members and their bishop of the ward they moved from....I was able without being emotional and getting upset tell my Bishop our "story" in short form.  What he needed to hear.  I was also able to matter of fact w/o using judgement on myself or birthfather mention to him how deep my issue w/church leaders, priesthood holders, and bishopric members goes.  I don't know who was more shocked...Bishop G or myself. 

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I have a barage of appts this week.  Well, not any different than any other week.  I see the orthopedic surgeon on Tuesday, again.  Hoping that he will be able to provide some answers.  I know the results of my MRI.  I know that surgery isn't always suggested.  And yet, I also know something NEEDS to be done and I can't keep living w/pain.  Yesterday pain was bad.  Really, really bad....and I was near tears when I made it home last night.  I took portraits of my Aunts kids during the bd party.  I was in a great deal of pain when I came home last night.  And frustrated because of it!!!  Today hasn't been that much better in that department.  I need some relief.  it's making me crabby....crabby...crabby!!