Sadness

There is a deep sadness in my heart this evening.  Tragic and freak accident that involved a close friend and co-worker.  Her life will be forever changed...

The last few days have been a whirlwind of activity.

I'm praying for peace.  For understanding.  For guidance.   And so much more.

I'm due to go back to work tmw.  I didn't work today due to a medical procedure that involved VERY RARE complication.  I have had a significant melt down s few different times tonight as i bear the thought of returning to work and facing the people of this city.

Somehow I will have to pull my big girl panties up and step back into that building.

I'm very hesitant to meet with tie critical response team.  Ive been told it is something that all employees shove had close contact with jet need to do.  I'm worried if I meet with them i will jot be able to work.

I'm angry.  Very very angry at this situation.  At the media. Omfg....at the media.  At fellow employees.

And...at the Dr who put a picc line threw an arterial vein/vessel causing me to bleed uncontrollable for over an hour..