There is no other way to describe it.
Yesterday was a rather emotional day. I had scheduled a Dr appointments and a therapy appt. Followed by a massage at the end of the 2 appts. Then a date night at a very nice restraunt we had a gift certificate for. Things didn't go as planned. I left the first appt w/o receiving the treatment. Then off to the other 2 appts. I struggled to slow down my thoughts and emotions in order to get the most out of my massage. From there I had to return to the clinic. I left OVER 3 hrs later.
While there my aunt called. She doesn't know how much her call meant. Soon as she said hi I burst into tears.
The course of treatment is up in the air. The nursing staff suggest hospitalization for 24-48 hrs or a picc line.
Ive got some thoughts swirling around re the new massage therapist i am seeing. Again.....very raw!! My therapist mentioned she could be intense. Ive kind of felt it. Just not to the extent as i did yesterday. VERY INTENSE. I'm not sure how to process some of the emotions and triggers. A very different experience than ive had with other massages.
My hand (due to the treatment) is very swollen and bruised. And typing is bothering me.