If you have been reading my blog for any length of time, you know I have engaged in several struggles over the last year. I have had several boughts of dark depression. Each ranging from chemical imbalances unable to be supported by medication, job stress and previous abuse/triggers that are on going, financial frustrations due to being unable to work full-time due to health or other mental health related issues. Each of these events and more have been incredible challenging. Challenges which I am certain I could not have overcome with out the love, support and understanding of a few incredible friends.
When I say friends I do not mean acquaintances. I do not mean people I just know through memberships in similar groups or organizations. I mean people who know who I am, on a deep and personal level, and stood by me when it was difficult to do so. Who have picked up the phone and made sure that I was okay, when I was certain I didn't know if I was okay. For many of us, such true friends are few and very far between. I know that for years I could count mine on one hand. And even today, can still count them on one hand.
My recent surgery has shown to me who those true friends really are. Those friends who call because theyc are about who I am. Who send tid bits here and there to let me know they care. Who with out expecting anything in return let me know that I am loved.
This my friends is the greatest gift we can give someone. Thich Nhat Nahn (Buddhist Monk) has a saying: "The greatest gift you can give someone is to say 'Darling, I am here for you.'" When someone you call friend puts this saying into action and is truly there for you, it is indeed an incredible gift.
I owe a deep dept of gratitude to the friends who have listened to my aching heart, held my confidences, cared, supported and loved on me more than I ever feel entitled to. THeir words of caring and comfort create a beam that will continue to lead me through the dark tunnels I have found myself in over the last several months and continue to do so. You have given me hope and encouraged me to find a path in which I can continue to move forward, instead of backwards. And you have become my biggest cheerleaders, believing in me and lifting me up when I feel I can't go on. I am truly blessed to have each of you in my life.
The only way to ever repay you for what you have given (and continue) to give me is to remind you that; "Darling, I am here for you." I will answer your call when you reach out and will be there for you as you have been me to me over these trying moments and long days.