Sunday, January 13, 2013

Remind Me

Would you....

....remind me who I am?

I am more than who I see in the mirror each day.
I am more than the negative voice in my head who tells me that I will never be good enough. Ever.
I am more than the mom who yells at her children when she is frustrated and overwhelmed.
I am more than what depression tells me I am.
I am more than the mom, who battles severe depression/treatment resistant depression daily.
I am more than the anxiety that has wrapped the chains around my neck.
I am more than the fear that holds me back from the blessings life has in store.
I am more than the mom, who fights tremendous guilt each day for who she can't be.
I am more than the wife who constantly questions her husbands love for her.
I am more than what mental illness has made me believe I am.
I am more than what I tell myself I am.

I am a mother.
I am a wife.
I am more than anxiety.
I am more than depression.
I am imperfect.
I am a Daughter of a Loving Father in Heaven.
I am real.
I am transparent.
I am Me.

The circumstances in my life do not define who I am as a person. 

I am Enough.

**This post was one of the hardest posts that I've wrote.  it has taken a few days for me to gather the courage to finish it.  This is what depression does to me.  To anyone who battles with this beast...this is what it does.  There are days that the depression and dark hole is so incredible deep it hurts to breathe. It hurts to move. I hurts to think.  Nearly every single moment of...every single day of the last 10-14 days have been filled with darkness.  This last week has been literally step by step, hour by hour, minute by minute, to get to the end of the day. Today was no different.**


Dina Marie ~ A Plucky Procrastinator said...


Jane Smith said...

Fabulous post!

Christine said...

This is amazing, and you are amazing! Very thoughtful and insightful. You dug down deep inside for this and it shines through.