This morning while sitting in church I came across the picture below on pinterest.
At that moment the weight came crushing down. Fighting back tears as I sat there waiting for the last hymn to end.
Can I REALLY do this?
I keep being told "you are not alone...you need to use the tools you have been given over the years...you have been 'here' before...and so much more."
I am alone.
Sure there are others who get this.
I am here. Right here. Doing this alone.
I have pulled out nearly every tool I have.
I have picked myself up off the floor and participated in life.
Because that is what the tools insist on doing.
And here I sit.
In my car.
I'm signing off for now.,
Could be the day, a week, a month...
I don't know.