After a few months of uncertainty, I will begin a new form of treatment for treatment resistant depression. It isn't something that is well known. I will blog more in next few days. If you follow my FB page you may be aware of what type of treatment.
I will do this treatment! I will not back down. I will be OK. Regardless of how incredible scared I am.
That being said....
I am incredible terrified.
Filled with fear.
Fueled with fear.
Unable to really talk abt any of the fears associated with it.
I had 4 separate doctor appts today. Yearly physical with my PCP whom I've not seen in a year. That brought with it a bag full of triggers.
Chiropractor for my back that crapped out on me this week and had me flat on my back 50% of the last few days.
Occupational therapy for my shoulder.
Last but not least a psych appt....and it didn't go very well. I lost my shit. I was ugly.
I came home and received phone call to set up treatment. Starting Monday. And it has pretty much left me speechless...paralyzed in fear...unable to think rational on any matter.