Beautiful Mess

Trying like hell to keep my head above water...I headed down this path to the water. 

It is chilly today...43° at the present moment.

As I walked down the path...I was struck by how much it felt similar to where I find myself currently emotionally and spiritually.

No blooms on the trees. Broken limbs.  Trees down.  Leaves scattered.  Dirty.  Dark.  Dreary. 

The sun would peak down every little bit.  Giving a small glimmer of light among the trees.  But not for long. 

I could only go so far since the trail ended and was full of mud.  I could continue.  Get dirty. Get stuck. 

I turned around.  And went another direction.  Only to find myself in the same predicament.

At which point I turned around and came back to my car.

As I looked at the few pics I took on my phone I was struck by how they didn't represent fully what my eyes seen.

The photo below portrays a little light.  Blue sky and lake in the distance.  It looks peaceful and full of grace.  There was a level of peace as I listened to the birds chirping.

A beautiful mess.
It is all in the eye of the beholder.