Oh dear God...I'm about to loose my mind. I swear. I'm so damn tired of the up/down/up/down roller coaster. Do you find it odd that I love roller coasters? But hate this roller coaster.
Work is about as good as it will ever get.
However, work is about to go down hill for the time being because...I am on the downhill swing.
I'm very behind in my blog reading.
Not because I've been busy, have better things to do, or just haven't got to it.
Nope. None of those things.
I don't have it in me.
Regardless of the never ending 'you're not alone' montra. I"m alone. I am here in this cold friggn state. Alone. Not one person that gets it. Hell I don't get it.
Keeping my anxiety in control is a full time job. And I am not sure how much longer I can keep the smile on my face and pretending all is well. (Montra).
